现在才发现是否太迟？

这个月内发生了2件不愉快的事情

第一件事发生在学业上
偶不知道为什么考试不及格
是不是final写不好
还是老师不明白偶写的东西
大家都对偶说
都已经是事实了
就接受吧
别再追问为什么的
下次再努力考好就得了
但。。。偶还有多少次下次呢？

第二件事就是体型
偶今天到tesco买衣服和西裤
要不是偶试衣服
都不知道原来自己无形中的增肥了
很伤心也很失望
以为不怎么吃东西就不会发胖
但。。。原来偶错了
看着镜中的自己总是觉得很厌倦 很讨厌
什么时候自己才能变得漂亮
什么时候才能变成妈妈所想要的票准身材
偶自己也不知道

偶还是第一次在乎自己的体重
每次人家说偶肥说偶胖
偶都没关系
因为健康就好开心就好
但。。。事实终究是事实
总要面对自己是肥婆胖妹肥妹

宝贝每次都对偶说
没关系不要紧无所谓
在他心里偶已经很美了
但这些话对偶而言总觉得很为难你
自己的肥胖搞到别人歧视你看扁你
有这样的女朋友

偶真的开始自卑起来了
心情不好
乱发脾气
但又不想让你知道
怕你担心
最总你还是担心了~
宝贝
对不起
偶太没用了
偶什么都做不到
偶能做的只是呆在你身边而已
原谅偶的无知
原谅偶的天真
原谅偶的鲁莽
原谅偶的小气
原谅偶的一切

偶爱你

What's wrong ???

what happen to everyone?

what happen to my family?

what happen to my mummy?

what had i done?

what's wrong with me?

what's going on?

anyone can tell me?

im sick of those question...everyday bla bla bla...if mummy really dont like my life style

just ask me back to daddy hse lor...no nid so san fu euu everyday bla me isn't it?

i know whatever i do whatever i say whatever i do not help are totally wrong...

whatever u do whatever u say whatever u scold are 200% CORRECT...

euu r my mummy and im ur daughther i should keep my mouth shut and listen to euu...

it is fair to euu doesn't it?

nothing much i can help...

nothing much i can do...

nothing much i can say...

do euu really wanna force me betray euu and leave this hse or euu let me do whatever im doing?

of coz...i knew the answer even tot euu didnt say it out...coz i know...EUU ARE MY MUMMY...

EUU WILL NEVER CHANGE UR MIND...

euu are the one i admire 1 love it and i wont leave euu...

but nowadays...u make me become......... till i dunno how im gonna descirbe....

everyone got anger...everyone will have to explore...

im the one who let euu explore on me...

im the only one who are still beside euu do euu know that?

do euu know why i dowan to back daddy's hse?

do euu ever know why i choose to follow euu?

euu will never know...whatever euu say is hurting me...

whatever u doing is for UR OWN GOOD!

mummy...ur action will just make me crazy and not teaching me...

whatever euu are doing now is totally out of ur mind...

im telling...im not trying to wai hip euu...if euu still gonna be like that...

im sure...i will back to daddy hse...

and become a person that u will never know...

im already s0t...